The Self-Aware Narcissist

Don't watch myself failing

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Don’t watch myself failing

My mind is black & white

My poetry is emptiness

I am never alone, only inside.

Get your hands off, now touch me!

I’m here to get my piece

I ignore consequences

I flaunt false consciousness.

I hold others accountable

Nightmares of rejection

My self worth and my self esteem

Are based on an erection.

I use him as a punching bag

I ward off all the blame

I bottle up my fear and pain

And let out all the shame.

I run away for pity

I run with burning rage

I fear careless wisdom

I fear ugliness and age.

I push away the real

Running from reality

I run from realizing that

I run away from me.

My name is very special

I don’t know how to hope

Forgiving my own unholiness

Virtue is my dope.

I pretend to know sanity

People being fair

I am a Photoshop illusion

And they aren’t worth my care.

Narcissism

Kill me, kill me!

Please destroy your “self”

Self esteem

Pity the liar!

Take that pill yourself.

Dawn at two horizons

Watch me pick flowers as a kid

I used to live in paradise

Now it’s a big pile of shit.

Succumbing to depletion

Defying my deletion

Portraying this seductiveness

As destiny and nothing less…

Has concentrated sex and fear

Her words on walls:

“The end is near”

She fears to stay alive.

Forgive this empty girl

Grand delusions of herself

Forget, forget this guilty girl

She’ll never like herself.